Poem | you ten - me zero

I hope something awful

that you’ll allow me

the freedom

to manipulate you

as you have me.

I will always

let you win

every game

of chess.

Free will is everything

in the right circumstances

and as it transpires

you have given me

everything I need

in the confines of our

fleshless romance.

Therefore, I have

devised rules

for myself.

I will make sure that I tell you

every single one of

my insecurities,

because you’ll never

use them against me,

I know.

I promises

to believe you

and everything

you say.

I promises

to support you

and everything

you do.

You told me

you don’t do

expectations,

so I promise

to never expect

anything

from

you

Not clarity

Not explanation

No apology’s

Nothing.

And when you

shout, kick,

scream,

punche,

I’ll apologies

for my own

disregulation

My disorder.

My standards

My hopes

My self respect;

Just daydreams

You laugh at

how silly

I am.

I’ll be faithful

thankful,

grateful, and

protect you and

all of your secrets;

so pleased that

you should do

what you will with mine,

because your version

of events are true,

and my are false

always.

I will never

contradict,

criticises,

question,

metastasise

judgement.

Please I beg you

to correct

any of my

mistakes.

Because

you know more

than anyone;

whats best

for me.

You build me up,

with your silence.

I only improve when

I know your angry

I’m scare you’d

leave me alone

and now I can

be anything,

Incredible,

just for

you.

And for this

I’ll tell you

every day

how much

I adore you,

how lucky I am

just to have you.

How i’m nothing

without you, and how every day

with you is a blessing, and that you are my

entire world, you deserves the most praise

and I’ve become sexually attracted to my phone

because I associate it with you;

I’ll worship you, admire you,

and when you laugh at me,

I laugh harder…

Because every

game of chess,

I let her win…

…